I wanted to publish this post yesterday, but couldn’t because of a monkey on my back. Not an actual monkey as they can be volatile and rip your face off without warning. Let me take you back in time so I can explain…
Caffeine and I have had a tempestuous relationship. Growing up, I thought coffee tasted like chalk. My mom and her relatives would sit around the table while the kids came around like waiters, bringing them their liquid crack. When I wasn’t acting like a slave, I was sneaking little tastes here and there. I vowed never to drink it.
Photo by Julius Schorzman
Then college happened. It was the late 90’s. It was Seattle. It was cold. I was tired. Starbucks stores were on every single corner. I was like one of those vulnerable people who fell into a cult, only I was worshiping baristas.
Fast forward 13 years, and I’ve tried to kick the habit dozens of times. I stay away from it for a couple of weeks while doing a cleanse, or for a few days when I’m on a camping trip and don’t have access to my arsenal of addictive substances. Do you know how hard it is to get Ketamine in the woods?
Prior to NaNoWriNO, I had determined that caffeine was ruining my writing. It was hard for me to sleep, hard for me to concentrate, hard for me to sit still. I struggled to squeak out a few sentences, and there were times when I was in tears over my inability to focus and write.
So I kicked my bitch lover, caffeine.
I thought I was going to die during the initial detox. The first few days I had so little energy I slept nearly 16 hours a day. Once I came out of my comatose state, I had a headache so bad that the only way to alleviate it would have been decapitation. I was shaky and nauseous and cranky. I was a jerkasaurus rex.
Eventually I stabilized, and my ability to write became easier as I suspected it would. I completed NaNoWriNO, and took a short break to recuperate. I went to a coffee shop on Tuesday to write this post, and ordered a decaf coffee. They were out, but said a fresh batch would be done soon. Bueno.
No bueno. Somehow the barista had forgotten that I ordered decaf, and filled my cup with regular. I’m sure of it. I was anxious, sweaty and stayed up way past my bedtime. I tried to write my post, but the caffeine wordblocked me. I went into an ALL CAPS RAGE.
Luckily, I woke up the next day and wasn’t hungover from my accidental caffeine binge. Even now, 459 words later, I still haven’t written the post I originally intended.
Here’s what I had wanted to say: I want to send out Christmas cards to my Hooked on Tonics this year. I’m sure this will be some project I think is a good idea now, but will become a thorn in my side later on. Similar ideas include, but are not limited to:
- NaNoWriNO
- Being President of the Pauly Shore fan club
- Pretending that a Lean Cuisine isn’t just an appetizer for my real lunch
- Buying stock in Hostess, Inc.
- Watching any movie Jennifer Lopez has been in
“But Jen, why would we want to get a stupid card from you?” Because 9 out of 10 doctors agree that receiving gifts from me will lower your cholesterol, and help you keep your erection three times longer. That last doctor is just mad because I haven’t paid him for the rabies shot he gave me after I got into pissing match with a raccoon that ended badly for me.
Still need an incentive? I’ll be including a creative picture of myself which may look something like these lovely shots:
Credit: SketchySantas.com
Credit: Photo by Andre Csillag / Rex USA (238096ku)
This is the greatest collage to have ever been produced
Send your name and address to sipsofjenandtonic@gmail.com if you’d like to receive the gift that keeps on giving. Seasons greetings, bitches.
Sips of Jen and Tonic 
How can I resist being called a bitch? I can’t. So email sent. ^.^
Oh, and I also remember kicking the caffeine addiction. I didn’t like coffee, only drank sodas, so had like WAY less of the caffeine and it was awful. So I can definitely imagine how much worse it is for coffee drinkers!
Was it Diet Soda? I’ve heard it’s really hard to kick that one over most other kinds.
No, actually regular. Didn’t get into weight consciousness until recently lol (Oh bygone college days, how I miss having to walk a ridiculous amount everyday)
Yes! Now THAT was my addiction. I used to drink so much Diet Pepsi. Like, a 2-liter a day. It was ridiculous. I gave that up a few years ago when I first started to take on a healthier lifestyle. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I don’t think it was the caffeine I was addicted to in the soda, since I would drink iced tea of other beverages with caffeine. I think it was the aspartame (it’s the artificial sweetener used, for those who haven’t heard of it).
YOU BITCH! (I love you)
That’s generally what I translate “you bitch” to mean ^.^
I was a dealer. And a pusher. I managed a “we’re not actually a Starbucks but we serve Starbucks beverages” for five loooooong years. I still start my day with 5 shots of espresso. Doesn’t even phase me anymore. If caffeine consumption was an Olympic sport, I’d have a gold medal.
I am both turned on and terrified by you. Like a moth to a flame…
There was one time in college when I stayed awake for 3 days straight solely surviving on vanilla lattes and blueberry muffins. I finished two finals and then STARTED AND COMPLETED a 10-page history paper about Germany. Every time my eyes would start to clamp shut, I would fervently chug lattes until I could barely blink open my eyes. Slapping myself helped too. It took me weeks to recover from my caffeine binge.
Holy crap, I bet you were so messed up from that! A friend of mine once drank 12 shots of espresso in a short period of time (can’t remember now how long it was) and he literally became a psychopath.
Coffee can be evil. I only drink decaf now and am seriously thinking it’s being spiked. Maybe the hamster does it when I’m not looking.
Would love a greeting card, emailing shortly.
Hamsters ARE the devil’s minions…
I have gone through the same thing with Diet Coke. It’s a bitch. You’re definitely a blogging overachiever with this Christmas card thing. You should be proud.
When my friend gave up Diet Coke I thought I was going to have to kill her because she was such a psycho. Now I sympathize.
I had to move to tea because of the same problem. I miss coffee so much it gives me rage boners.
Do your cards come with mushrooms? Nothing says xmas like tripping balls.
“Deck the halls with (balls) for tripping” Falalalala lala la la.
A rage boner kind of sounds like a good time.
I should include some shrooms. My drug dealer is going to be so happy.
Oh, man! Love EVERY SINGLE PHOTO! I guess you get pix happy when raging with caffeine. I hope you didn’t crash too hard. I was a junkie back in the day then quit cold turkey. Talk about hard!
I stared at Pinterest for about four hours before even writing a word. MORE PICTURES.
As someone who has been privileged enough to receive a beautiful and poignant card from you, I can attest to its healing powers. The boils on my face all went away, I suddenly look 10 years younger, I can walk up a flight of stairs without getting winded, and my total cholesterol did indeed drop by 50 points. You’re a fucking miracle worker.
You should see what I can do with my hands! No, seriously, I want to give you a full body rubdown.
*running out to get oils and lotions*
My favourite in this post is the bear. The bear is awesome. Supply and demand baby, supply and demand. He’s just being real with you.
I do like his upfront nature (pun intended)
I don’t drink coffee, but I get my caffeine from tea or diet soda (bad, I know). I’m impressed you gave it up. Not sure if I could go there. Not sure if I want to. 😉
I think you should just let me test out all these crazy theories. Don’t mess with the recipe for your success!
Deal. 🙂
Hey, Colonic Tonic (my new name for you)! I love this post. You are my writing hero!
That’s a genius nickname.
It’s stems back to your post the other day. I mean it with love and adoration. :*
I always want you thinking of my rectum!
Uh….
Personally, I love the best collage ever. What the hell is that?! Hahahah. What a sweet idea. I’ll be sending my address. I can’t live without caffeine. I’m not even going to try to stop!
The best collage ever is a crowd favorite. How could it not be? And I fully support your love of caffeine.
Is that a pic of Justin Timberlake?! He went to high school a couple towns over from me.
It is! Did he really? Your brush with fame.
I have so many high school stories about him and Britney. A guy in my class is distantly related to her.
The Matthew Gray Gubler collage is EPIC! I love it so….
Right? He’s just so…MANLY.
Jen, Glad you made it back from getting slipped a mickey. A card! Wow! I now have a legitimate reason to celebrate winter solstice! Yay!
I have to ask, where did you go to school in this fair but wet city? Cornish? SPU? Please don’t say UW…
Email on the way! Thanks!
Seattle U – no husky here. Unless you count these love handles…
And yes! I made it back from the abyss, and I’m ready to terrorize you guys again.
I’m glad! Bring it!
I WANT A J&T BONER SOOOOOOO BAD.
I’m torn between dick in a box and MGG.
You are a good and kind soul to think of us devotees at this time. Love you forever.
I LOVE YOU FOREVER THIS TATTOO OF YOUR FACE ON MY BACK PROVES IT PLEASE MARRY ME
The saxophone picture is AMAZING and I hope you choose something like that. I was considering going to sit on Santa’s lap again this year and sending out cards and then I remembered I have no friends. So.
Also, I love coffee and when I don’t have it, I feel like I am going to stab a bitch. I understand.
I think it’d be totally okay to walk through the mall in short shorts and a Saxophone waiting to snuggle up to Santa. No, that’s not the stuff childhood nightmares are made of.
Maybe I’ll get a shot of him slipping me the tongue.
yeeeess
I’ve never had a cup of coffee in my life, and it’s mainly because I’m afraid to. I’m already hyper. My guess is I’d have a heart attack on the spot.
You know how I love your cards.
NEVER?! Wow, I feel like bowing.
Nope never, but it’s not that it was such a great feat. It’s fear, all fear.
I had exactly the same experiences as you!
Except with tequila.
And I never tried to quit.
(She’s a harsh mistress, but I love her so.)
Oh, and I’ll thank you to stop posting that top santa picture and claiming it’s you. I spent too much time sculpting that body to lose credit for it!
I’m doing a comment bomb here to say Happy birthday, Guap!
Thanks Weebly!
And thank you for your post this morning. I loved it!
I apologize. You’ve worked hard to get that sexified body, and I’m trying to claim all the glory.
Tequila and I have a BAD history together. I should write about it sometime.
Yes, Jen. Sounds like you and coffee just don’t mix. But OMG, that first Santa shot burned a hole in my retinas! Sending my email address anyway. 🙂
It’s the kind of thing you can’t unsee, I agree. Thank you for being so forgiving!
I’ve quit coffee a few times. But then I start falling asleep on the drive to work and start drinking it again.
Oh well…
I’m lucky because I work from home so I was able to crash into things without having to call Geico.
You are indeed lucky. That little gecko creeps me out.
Oh you poor dear. What an unfortunate slip for the sip. That’s just not fair when you’re trying to be “clean”. I hope it’s out of your system soon!
Don’t worry, I went back the next day and made him look at naked pictures of me. Talk about suffering.
Good on YOU…now you’ll be getting double shots!
Like photo #1 done like a collage!
Multiple snapshots of me half-naked and passed out? I like your style.
With hats on your naughty bits…
Jen,
I still like you, albeit the caffeine nonsense.
Our address, you will receive, again.
After the XMAS card comes the visit, right?
Le Clown
I wish I was delivering the card in person. I’ll send you a private message, but it looks like the job situation is gonna work itself out so a visit is on the horizon.
Ooh, is there going to be a party that I can creepily crash soon? Sounds fun 😀
PARTY AT CLOWN’S HOUSE!
YESSS. I’ll bring my Batman snuggie and cupcakes!
Sounds good; ever have the local brews in Quebec? Tres manifique, frankly…
I get to come, too!!!!
Also, jerkasaurus rex=awesome.
This is turning into the best party ever.
I believe caffeine has to be detoxed slowly. I went from a 6-er of Diet Coke a day, to one Coke Zero in the morning.
That stuff shouldn’t be legal!
I’m surprised I didn’t die, not kidding. I used to drink up to a pot a day. I’ve been better in recent years, but still. My body gets happy with the ‘ffeine.
Just tried coke zero not too long ago, and was actually impressed.
I switched because I keep hearing how bad Diet Colas are for you.